Benign!

The results are in! My breast lump is a benign fibroadenoma. Thank goodness! All I could think of before getting the results is how much time I would have to spend in doctor appointments or recovering from procedures and I'd miss Owen too much.

That is all :) happy happy Wednesday!

The New Normal

A year ago the hubby and I were living in our city apartment enjoying happy hours within walking distance and spending Sundays in bed. We were also, sort of kind of, trying to get pregnant. The point is, we had very few responsibilities. Pay bills, go to work, have fun- that was it. We knew it then, but we really really know it now, that those were our last days like that. We love our house, our son, and we will eventually get to a new normal and fall in love with that too. But right now, it's hard. I'm being selfish probably. I miss impromptu dates with my husband, wandering from store to store, and coming and going as I please. Being a new parent is hard, breastfeeding takes up hours and hours of everyday, and I think I'll eventually get used to the revolving door attached to our house (visitors). I know everyone wants to see our amazing little creation, I know.

Today brought another not so normal event. I had a biopsy done on a tumor in my right breast. The procedure was simple. I was awake, it took only 30 minutes. Not a big deal. They did a guided needle biopsy, and took 3 samples. It was not painless, they started before I was numb and I bled a lot. I got really lightheaded. It just wasn't fun. My boob hurts! Luckily I have leftover codeine from delivering Owen.

I've had the tumor since 2009 and had it checked out every 6 months with no changes and the doctors were never concerned. They say it's probably a fibroadenoma, which is a benign tumor. But then, it grew and appeared different on my ultrasound last week. So the biopsy is just to be safe. I'll have results by Friday. 

Twenty-eight

I deposited my $28 check from my grandma this morning. Every year I get a check in the amount that matches my age. Perk to getting older?

I think I might have forgotten all about my birthday if other people didn't say anything. I just can't get into it. However, my mom and nana are in town and I was sent away to enjoy alone time. I got a manicure and bought a dress for a wedding I'm going to in a few weeks. I was bored the whole time. Someone please slip me a happy pill.

I had my 6 week checkup yesterday and another doctor appointment. Neither were fun, and I have to go back on Monday.... Hopefully it's nothing.

Here's a cute picture of me and my beautiful widdle boy at the pumpkin patch last weekend  :)

Momma's a Party Pooper

We went to a wedding last night. It was beautiful. The flowers, the decorations, the food, the band, the open bar... It was great. I bought a new dress, wore heals for the first time in forever. Me and the husband were looking good. My parents had Owen. The night was ours! But I felt so out of place. Like, "why am I here?, I should be home with my baby." I didn't drink much because I felt like that was a waste of breast milk. I even bought those little test strips to test my milk for alcohol. But it just feels like a waste. Feeding Owen feels much more important than a few drinks. I just couldn't shake the feeling, which turned me into the Worlds Lamest Date. The husband and I usually dance like crazy fools all night at stuff like that. But I just couldn't get into it. The 2 drinks I had were making my stomach swim, and my feet were killing me.

I hope it was just because it was our first time out...I don't want to be a party pooper forever. Maybe I just wasn't ready? We have another wedding in late November, maybe I'll be ready to have fun by then. 

Owen's 1 Month Old

Owen likes bright lights, cuddling in the morning and evening, bath time, and eating. He hates diaper changes, and putting on clothes.

His longest stretch of sleep was 7 1/2 hours!!! He has a big smile! He is still wearing newborn size clothes and diapers...but not for too much longer I don't think. He now weighs 8 pounds 7.4 ounces and is 20 inches. He's in the 14th percentile.

We can't wait to see him smile on purpose and hear him laugh.

Baby Body

I read a lot when I found out I was pregnant about just how much is a healthy amount to gain. I think most twenty-something age women freak out about that-at least for their 1st pregnancy. So 15-20 pounds is what I planned and expected to gain. I luckily stayed within those limits. I didn't do anything extreme. I didn't workout throughout my pregnancy and I didn't starve. I ate a ton of fruit and veggies and healthy fats. And lots of ice cream and junk food. When your pregnant and need queso, you eat queso! But, I know that the reason I didn't gain too much is because I never stopped. I wish I would have rested more, but I never stopped. My entire pregnancy was a whirlwind of life. Remodeling a house, moving, teaching, moving a classroom, life was crazier than ever. It wasn't until Owen was born that I stopped and relaxed. Being home with Owen has made me stop, and just be "here". (As if I wasn't enough of a homebody already) I'm so glad our house and everything worked out so perfectly for us. It was a pain in the ass during the process, but it's perfect. We got our house and Owen arrived early to make it a home. My favorite thing is when just the 3 of us are home together as if we've been here all along.

Owen is about a month old and I'm just under my pre-prego weight. I'd like to thank breastfeeding and the crazy amount of water breastfeeding requires you to drink. I feel awesome :)